Dreams

i don't understand how dreams work sometimes. they're this weird image in the back of my head trying to escape my thoughts. sometimes it's a exciting feeling to fall asleep knowing that you'll be sleeping for a certain amount of hours after a hard day of school or work. how about the ones that are so deep and sweet; like you're falling off a step, stairs or tripping over something and you wake up startled from the fall you were about to make, to only find out that you were asleep for 5-10 minutes. but, it felt like more than an hour. ah, those are great. sometimes i just don't want to wake up from a dream. why would i want to wake up from a dream to a nightmare? life is a nightmare with a whole bunch of groin rocks hitting you. like you're trying to run away from obstacles, running from grief, running from sadness, running from depression, sickness, mental issues, personal issues, life itself and just trying to escape. trying to escape really, really far away. the only times that everything seems to be funny or rememberable is when I'm high. i think so much better, grasping every inch of detail. its just like a dream except, i control it. i can build a skyscraper, fight a ninja, float on a cloud, make an invention and fall sound asleep into another dream. i hate having a nightmare though. feeling that numbness all over your body wanting to wake yourself up from that nightmare, but you cant. "wake up Che, wake up". its like your trapped within yourself. being high, is nothing like that because i control my high. at first my high use too control me, but after this summer of smoking more than what i usually do, i control it now. i sleep with a night light. I'm afraid of the dark. i remember this summer i couldn't sleep without my light off in my room because my night light needed a new light. that light was so irritating. i just ended up staying up all night. id wait until the sun would rise with light in the sky and the moon will fall with the stars behind it, hiding and saving it for another night. id get up turn off my light and fall sound asleep. it was a real bad sleeping habit of the summer. a dream in a dream, wake up Che.